A NEW LIFE.

20062009-30062010

2010-07-02T07:51:00.000+08:00

Promises, they are meant to be broken.
True love, are not meant forever.
Thanks for the 375days being here.

I left all my memories behind my back.
And a big scar that has been made,
I remember so that next time I will remind myself not to fall for it again.

GOODBYE FOREVER.

2010-07-01T11:36:00.000+08:00

I don't know how many times will we face the break up like again and again.
Seems like never end.
I guess this time I will put a full stop and move on.

I guess I always cannot stop this relationship bcos I dont know how to let go.
I always look back the things we have been through.
I always look back the effort that I tried to mend each and every trials we had.
So as to make sure the relationship will last.

I don't love to try and error in relationship.
Bcos I feel that we should face problems and grow together.
If you ever ask me did I regret, yes I did.
I did regret knowing Roy, I did regret to fall in love with him deeply.

But I guess life comes with regrets so that I can learn something out of it.
This time I let go and make sure I will not turn back.
I will not pray hard because I believe I can move on without him.

And I will never tear anymore because of us.
Because I will leave those memories we had behind my back.
So that I will never had a chance to look at it. And try to hold back again.
Like many other times.

I am Jill, I am twenty going to twenty one years old.
I don't know what or how life will be in front of me.
Recently, boss told me something that I think is meaningful.
In life, I never look back but keep looking forward.
I choose to learn to never look back.

I will go back school, I will learn things that I always wanted to.
I want to be a strong and independent woman.
I will go back to church, change everything and start anew.

If anyone ever come back to read this blog.
Sorry, if I have left all of your lives. I change number, stop my facebook and msn.
So that I can start a new life.

And I don't know when will I meet that perfect man.
I say goodbye to my first love.
And welcome my last love.
I will let God to decide, because I trust my life to rely on Him.

BACK HERE.

2010-06-29T13:59:00.000+08:00

I start anew here, I start writing again.
Because when I have thoughts, the best I can do is to keep writing.
When tears falls down, I can only try to let go the weakness in me through writing.

I cried inside my heart, when I was holding your hand lying beside you.
I cried, tears just fall unknowningly because I know I am going to be left alone again.
I love Roy, I never deny.
I never said a single word when I know you are leaving to UK.
Because I know I cannot be selfish to have you by my side and not letting you to go.
To go to fulfill your dreams, your ego.

Maybe this is life, I can never stay in my comfort zone.
Trying to rely on people, but end of the day I still have to learn to be independent.
Four years, I ask myself should I wait or should I not.
And I know I should not.
Not because I cannot wait, but because when he comes back.
He will not even remember who am I, I am living in a world seeing small small things.
While he is back after getting a degree in law, he will be looking into big big things.
His exposure will definately be much more than me.

And of course he will have a choice of his lifetime partner.
He will be very clear of what he wants to acheive in life and of course to find a partner...
that could work with him towards it.
I know I am not the one... even if I don't know how to let go.

I have to choose to let go.
It's like a dream, one year and eight days.
I miss Roy, I will miss miss Roy.
I will keep Roy in the deepest part of my heart.
Covered it with my memories that was shared between us.
And try my best to move on with life... myself.

I always thought I could turn this dream into reality.
But guess I was just too naive, the rich will never get together with the poor.

My first love, yet never gonna be the last.
God just love to fool us.

NO GLORY.

2010-04-12T21:12:00.002+08:00

Whenever I'm feeling low, You're always there.
Jesus, alot of times I ask why are You still here.
I never understand.
I will never recognise myself as a true Christian or even
to be called as Christian.

Because to me CHRISTian meant alot.
It meant not just a belief.
I know it isn't just a belief, it's about giving all that you had.
It's about commitment, about leading a life that people will see Christ in you.
I know I lost this, I am not even worth to be called at a child of God.

I miss church, I never deny.
This few weeks I really thought of getting back to COSBT,
to look for my saviour, my redeemer.
But I did not, because I know I can't bear to leave behind alot of things,
and be with Jesus.
I never break free, I never obey.
I remember there was one day, I met 4 people from Godchasers.
I tell myself it was not coincidence.
It's a reminder.

God is good, God is great.
I always feels very thankful that I am blessed.
Especially in my work, and friends around.
It's I let Jesus down.
It's the eighth year I still treat Christianity as a belief.
I never hold up to be a responsible Christian.

I never learn to even be the light nor
the salt of the earth.
I never learn to even be a good servant for God.
Neither did I be a good daughter.

I never ask for pitiful eyes.
Because life has no regrets.
But Jesus is always still my One & Only Father, Saviour, Lord, Healer.
He plays an important role in my life.
Many times when I met storms and thunders in life.
It's God Jesus, He sheltered me through all these.

During my darkest times, it's Jesus who told me,
in Him there is light.
It's Him that make me found back the purpose of living.
Whenever I feel like end of the world, commiting sucide.
It's Jesus, He reminded me that He died on the cross,
so that I can have life, so that I can breathe.

Guilts, Sins and Shame.
Is why I am still worldy wandering around and
not getting back to the kingdom of God.

DAYDREAM.

2010-04-09T17:18:00.005+08:00

-subcrew cap
-fcuk/ agnes b/ cdg/ armani exchange/ fred perry top
-zara man leather jacket
-g.star jeans
-porter bag
-a/x belt
-leather watch
-d&g necklace
-marc jacobs leather accessory
-agnes b hand accessory
-fred perry/ clog / larcoste shoe
-gucci wallet

That's label.
That's style to me.

SHUANA 19TH.

2010-04-07T01:06:00.001+08:00

Getting really lazy to blog these days.
As in really very very lazy especially to upload so many pictures.

But still this was I think last last week?
Shuanas sweet 19 at Sabai! Okie, so next month will be Ashley. >.*
*Excited*

I've decided to stop Sabai for this month.
Bcos I am broke, furthermore next month I'm heading Shanghai!
Yayness to Shanghai, bye to boring Singapore. :/

Roy's secondary school friends were there too. (:
Very long never see them already eh... ...

Shuana and Lester.

Nam and Me.

Jiaxi.

Audrey Darling.

Augustine.

Carlton Bro.

Ginana.

Lovely Ashley.

Baby Amaryllis.

LOST OF HOPE.

2010-04-05T18:22:00.002+08:00

I guess reading my blog has become more and more boring.
Reading how my life comes along, goes along becomes something predictable.
Even myself, find life, be it anything in my life equals boring.

It's all about Roy, work, club, play hard, work hard with colleagues and girlfriends.
Nothing new, everything has become a routine.

Alot of things, has turn me into someone that I used to be maybe 7 years ago...
Pessimistic, emotic, nothing good.
I hate life now, I seriously admit I hate who I am now.
I hate everything, anything.
Why is this so, because I find it meaningless to do everything now.

Nafa rejected my appeal.
Other alternatives, needs certain expectation and requirements that I cannot meet.
Roy, I dont even dare to say anything in front of him.
I thought we could go hand in hand with my worries.
But I think I cannot now.

I dont know where should I head to now.
Aimless, completely aimless.
My dreams, my career, my studies...
I crash it with my own hands.

One chance I'm given, I never treasure it.
I regretted, but too late.
I find it so meaningless to even work.
I work, save up money and no school wants me.
I love, my friends, family, Roy but who will be there when I need them most?
What's life now? What's life? What's life?

Is there still a dim of light in life that I can look forward to?
I ask, God Jesus what/ who am I?
I hate Jill. I hate my life.
I hate every little small things now because it's all meaningless now.
Fashion Designer, Singer, Artist used to be something realistic.
Now, everything has become nothing.

God Jesus, why do you still let me breathe?

LAST WEEKEND.

2010-03-24T18:09:00.008+08:00

SOMETIMES...

2010-03-24T17:58:00.002+08:00

Sometimes I really think life sucks.
It sucks maybe or mainly bcos I am not on a right path with Jesus.
Then I will just keep blaming, whining, complaining how unfair is life.

No need to go too far, just Roy is good enough.
I always very admire, not of whether the family is rich or not.
It's just like when I want to further study,
getting a 2k from my family is like begging mum to get it from loanshark.
And that fortunate Roy has a family that can afford his studies and everything.
Yet, he just take all these for grated.

That's unfair.
I have girlfriends who are so rich, they have height, beauty, everything almost perfect.
Start to look at myself.

I don't know why, am starting to look down on myself.
For some reasons, NAFA is not replying my readmission. ):
I'm held in this company, being promoted as sales executive.
Yet I don't know should I be happy or not.
Should I stay or not?

I keep thinking, wondering, 10years down what will I bcum.
I am so afraid of everything.
Even having Roy by my side is so scary,
it's like I dont even dare to hold on hope in us.
And where will I be if I return Nafa.
And who will I become if I continue working here.

I feel like dying... ...

FOOD FOR THOUGHT.

2010-03-17T21:36:00.001+08:00

Maybe when you start to get unhappy with work daily.
It's about to come to an end.

I don't know why is it Jill don't like to be always get corrected by people.
Or was it an excuse that I will always forget this, forget that.

Even took a day leave have to worry about this and that.
Took a day of mc, have to keep waking up and worry about work.

Hiahs, life sucks for one and a half year.
I shall put a full stop before we go on incentive trip.
Be nice and tell boss not to bring me along to overseas.

Sometimes really think I always think for others.
Then when will ever people think of me.
Is human really always so selfish? So self centered?

Maybe my personality really have a problem.
Because I am always blur and straight forward.
Or maybe I always think that I'm right people are wrong.
Or trying to find excuse to cover my own butt.

Tired, really very tired.
Sometimes get abit amazed that I could stay in this environment for
one and a half year.
1.5k job, 10hr job, sometimes Saturdays occupied.
Think through really not something I want in life.

While waiting for Nafa to reply my email on readmission.
I think I need a break.
Maybe you could say I am running away from responsibilities.
Running away from challenges ahead.
Maybe I didn't tried my best.
But I ask what for? What will I learn end of the day?
Will I be happy end of the day?

Ponder my thoughts.

NO MEANING.

2010-03-11T22:35:00.003+08:00

I came here to kill time.
Blogged those pictures, ST500 has rent out.
It's now in bangkok. Sadded.

I feel like sleeping.
These few days have not been sleeping well.
It's unusual, but I'm excited because it's FINALLY FRIDAY tomorrow.

Can I say NO to Sabai... ...

HOT SUMMER DAY.

2010-03-03T00:56:00.003+08:00

Caught the movie with Roy.
This is like only the fifth movie we catch eversince we know each other.
Nice, sweet, romantic and touching.

ST500!

2010-03-01T13:01:00.002+08:00

Since Roy bought me this,

I guess blog is not going to be dead from this day onwards.
Yayness~

Ok, it's good to be friends, maybe very good friends.
I understand this, love each other doesn't need to be together.
Haha~

Or rather it's better to be friends than enemies.
Ok, stop my nonsense and upload the pictures.
From Kallang to Cineleisure to Powerhouse to Sabai Sabai.

LET YOU GO.

2010-02-22T14:08:00.003+08:00

I left again, pretty sure this time I will not be a silly girl to u turn again.
To cut it short, when the relationship has got a big hole no matter how much I tried to mend the hole.
But the hole dunno why just keep expanding bigger and bigger till I cant mend it anymore.
I tried my best, I guess it's pretty obvious I tried my best.

But when a person don't appreciate, stop loving you anymore.
I know it's also pretty obvious to let each other go already.
Even the pain maybe unbearable.
But I have to move on I know, to make life easier for both of us.
I have to learn to change habit of not to return to Upp Thomson anymore.

I guess I have to stop blinded by love in my life.
I have been blinded by love for 2years.
And I think I got awake abit, as in I don't think about past anymore.
Life have to move on, I have been always thinking for others.
And neglected myself.

It's time to really do what I want to do in life and stop wasting my life-time.
I seriously need to get back school and fulfill my dreams.
I need to getaway awhile to renew my mind and soul.
I will pause relationship in life, cos there are really alot of things much more impt.

I used to think I can't live without Roy,
then I guess I have to learn to control my thoughts and my action.
I have been following instructions for too long and lost my ownself.

I will stop thinking stupid stuff like ending life, bcos life has so much more for me to explore.
I love jill, I love life.
I will do a better job in future.

SORRY SORRY.

2010-02-21T16:26:00.002+08:00

Though many have said, but like everyone says decision is still mine.
My life I choose to walk the way I want.
Maybe I should stop thinking like 'laoahma' anymore.
Think less, care less, everything less abit my life will be much better.

LUV COMES AROUND, GOES AROUND.

2010-02-17T09:25:00.011+08:00

It's never ending, 2 years still so complicated.
I guess if we are simple than life will not be so happening ah~

Anyway, I am damn tired cos I only slpt 45minutes today.
Textile centre is a heart attack. But he managed to fight back.
Heng ah~

I dunno why he just loves to always ask me the same question.
Why do you still loves me when my life is so fcuk up and I am good for nothing?
Then I will always answer, I always ask Jill this question too.

And I know even one day if you left with nothing I will still be here for you.
And if you have nothing good , I am not that good as well ah.
I've known you 3 years not 3 days, those most shitty times also seen before already ya.
No one is perfect.

I know both of us have flaws, we always make each other disappointed.
Always tells each other white lies in order not to hurt each other.
I am not a good girlfriend to be I know, bcos I tried to be nice and everything.
Here and to him, but I know sometimes I am just too hash on certain things.
Hurt myself, hurt you and love ones.

Human beings always try to potray a good image of themselves.
To protect themselves and to let people see that they are nice and perfect.
But when you tend to know each other too long, then we will start to encounter problems.
Bcos we will know each others good and flaws.

Just like us, alot of things I choose to close two eyes in order to let both of us better.
Better as in, in front of yours and my family and friends and both of us.
Anyway, already walk thus far so tough.
Just continue to fcuk it, heck it lah.

I AM FCUKING HELL WANT TO SLEEEEEEEEP RIGHT NOWWW!
6PM PLEASE FASTER COME!!!!

Sibei broken english, fcuk it alright!

CNY 2010.

2010-02-13T21:17:00.005+08:00

Chinese new year is always so boring, because all the places are closed.
And I have to rot at home.

Anyway, it has been awhile since I post a lengthy pictures post.

Since Audrey Lim Li-ting did a great favour to post all the pics on facebook.
I shall grab the chance to share the pictures we took just yesterday with my dream camera.
Sumsung ST550!!! It's just awesome.

So, it was Sabai Sabai again!

But this time it's a little different bcos I brought a special guest along.
YES, Jill's biological mummy!

Tell ya all a little secret alright, though mummy is 50 this year

but she used to bring me to pubs at Tanjong Pagar when I was just 16! So don't play play.

She's is not just 'IN' and happening to club with us the young generation people!

She just loves it like Jill do as well!

I love mummy deep deep, though in life I admit we make both disappointed at times. Ultimately, I cannot deny the fact that she's my closest and only kinship that I had on earth.

And here we go!

YES I OSO LOVE MY GIRLFRIENDS AS MUCH!

We are bff and sisters forever!

GRANDMA IS THE GIFT.

2010-02-11T22:35:00.002+08:00

I just painted my nails, wow i still have the skill!
Anyway, the main point why i am blogging... long story.

Bedtime story, I just got back home from dinner with grandma.
I kinda realize I really depend on her alot.
Every now and then, I tend to be really scare.
I am so afraid of losing ahma.

I know since young ahma doted me alot.
She was the one who disagree Mum to abort/ give me away.
She used her life to save me.
She used her life to bring me up thus far.

I used to be really ungrateful.
But as I gets older I learn to be grateful but kinda feel its too late.
Because she's old already.

I remember once I was standing near the mrt,
I saw her walking towards home after work.
That old and hectic ahma.
I tear, I remembered very well I teared.
Because I know I never study well.
I can't afford not to let her work for a living.

Many times, I know I let her down.
There are times, she cooked yet I did not came home for dinner.
I know I have let her down.
There are times, it was ahma that bring herbal soup to office for Jill.
There are times, it was ahma who took good care of me when I fall sick.
There are times, it was ahma who brought along an umbrella to shelter me home from mrt.

Not mummy, not daddy, none of my boyfriends nor friends.
God, please let ahma live longer on earth.
I want to do alot of things before she leaves, please give me a chance to do so.

HOW GREAT!

2010-02-05T18:10:00.003+08:00

I got an mc today,
came work trying to save the earth but I didn't save myself!
Oh, how great... ... lalalala what so ever then.

Goodbye realistic world, I am off from work.
Going back home sleep and rest.

EVERYTHING TAKES... TIME.

2010-02-03T17:56:00.007+08:00

I feel like going surfing! A random thought though I don't know how to swim.
But I don't think I need to know how to swim to surf ah.

The status is still unknown because everything takes... time.
We are giving each other space and time to change for the better.

And I just love my life now, healthy lifestyle, cherish people around me.
Less of nightlife, less of being slutish, more of gym, more of library!
I am trying my best to make changes for good.

Even people might hate me, dislike me.
But i always feel that i don't wish to have any enemy in life.
I learn to love and appreciate whether people love or hate me.

I guess when people really care about you, they will just turn nasty towards you.
Because they feel it's such a waste of their time to care for you.
I let people down, alot of people.
But I am still learning life.
I appreciate each and everyone that I met in life.
Whether or not did they gave me bad memories.
Even if they do, I still thank them because they make me learnt to be who i am today.

Chinese New Year is coming again, reunion dinner is around the corner once again.
Twenty years, I really hope one day I will have reunion dinner as a whole.
I miss Mum and Dad, eventhough they neglected me many times in my life.
But ultimately, I still know the blood that is flowing in me has genes of them.
And I love them just as much as God, my family members, friends, even people who hates me and him of course.

I love you Daddy and Mummy.

CHANGES.

2010-01-12T14:43:00.008+08:00

Wow, 4years I think I look chao liao now. -.-''
200620082009

2010

第二次爱上你 .

2010-01-04T13:19:00.004+08:00

I had a long weekend. I think it's one of the longest weekend I've ever had.
Alot of things happened, I am almost trashed.
Like I say I am standing in the middle of the bridge, turn left nor right seems wrong.

In two days time I'll be 20.
I chose to leave the relationship eventhough I know it hurts.
Eventhough it feels like my heart has been cut into pieces and get stepped.
That's how painful it is.
I cry till I already don't know how to turn off that tap already.

But I'm glad my girlfriends are there.
I've been on earth for 20years, I felt cherished by friends and family.
I choose to walk away, run to the other person's heart.

Someone that will treasure my presence.
Someone that will try his best to make me smile.
Someone that I know I he's here for me. (:

Mr R. is not no good.
It's just that maybe because we know each other too long.
We know each other too well.
We know each other how we think of each other.
We know each others good and bad habits.
We know each others friends, family.
I did cherish that rs, I did wanted to hold on longer.
But there are too much hurts and disappointment I have taken in.

Maybe when you know each other too well.
You will get bored and leave each other ultimately.
I've learn alot, I realize I have to fight for my own happiness.
I have to be selfish.
Relationship takes two hands to clap.
It's very simple, trust and communcation.
When you lost both, then it's about time that it ends.

I used to always don't understand why in love there's hatred.
Now, I know why I totally understand why.
I dunno what will happen in the future.
I dunno was this a better choice.
But like I say once you walk straight, you can't make a u turn in life.

I don't blame him, I don't blame myself.
I just blame things that happened.
I just blame why did God make us met each other.
We tried twice being together.
Get so in love and one day you have to let go.
Life, I never understand.
I never understand how to walk.
Try and error, fall and pick myself up and walk again.

Maybe really to love a person, is to let him go and seek for a better future and happiness.
Humans expect too much from each other, and once you cant meet each others expectations.
Ya... there goes the end.

FIRST LOVE.

2009-12-25T20:40:00.007+08:00

The last time, seriously finally.

Sad, I don't deny the fact I am sad.
Who broke up will not feel sad.

Lol.

But when you know the relationship cant continue anymore you have go no choice.

But to let go.

Ya, I cried bcos it started all with a sweet essence but it's not like this anymore.

I cried because i miss the past.

I cried and tell myself I am not going to dwell with it for long.

I love, I really love this guy damn hell lots.

But I know I have to learn to love myself more.

Since his heart already died for you, there's no way for me to hold on.

No matter what, I treasure this love.

Till now, I am still treasuring.

Six months, two years of knowing him.

I thought I can see the word 'last' in us but yaa...

It's okay, maybe one day when he learns to turn back and look.

Maybe there's still 0.01 percent of chance.

For now, I want to live a great life without him.

I always thought I can't live without him by my side.

But I know it's time for me to learn already.

Lastly, thank you for loving me Roy. (:

This will always be the song, that song to always remember you.
Like the lyrics says,
' You will always be inside my heart,
There will always be a place in my heart just for you.
I hope that I have a place in your heart too.'
This song, followed me two years. That two years without you.
It'll still follow me through the next 10, 20 years.

I will always remember someone like you, that I ever once love most in life.

LOVE SUCKS.

2009-12-20T16:36:00.007+08:00

I damn hate this kind of feeling.

It's like standing in the middle of the bridge.

Like turn neither left nor right is wrong.

All wrong.

Shall I stay or shall I leave?

Both will cause injuries and hurts.

I hate being the way I am now.

I hate to head the clubs but my partner is not here.

I hate it when like guys will want to get close to you.

Bcos they think you got no bf.

Hello, I am not a bitch.

I hate this, I rather have a control freak bf!!!

At least it shows they care, not fucking dunt care.

PS: Sometimes I really wonder, why should I love myself so much since no one loves me... ... what.

LAST FLIGHT.

2009-12-06T20:37:00.010+08:00

Has been very long, I last was here.

It's 6th December, 830pm.

I am at Singapore, Summerville Road.

It's exactly a month to my 20th.

It's gonna be the 200days of togetherness as well.

Well, I guess I am the only one who will take note of every little things.

2009 has come to an end.

It's gonna be a starting point next year. I hope.

Everything's afresh!

Like Roy, to me 2008 and 2009 were not good.

Too many events took place that made me learnt alot in life.

Kinda realize what I truly, really want in life.

20 years on earth, sometimes I think I am so extra in this universal.

To be very frank, I know I am a nobody friend.

I am Roy's girlfriend yet it don't seem like one.

Well, paranoid. Life is tough.

So tough that sometimes I wish I can stop breathing.

20years, I ask myself am I happy?

No, I am not.

I don't denied the happiest moments of my past twenty years.

Was during church days, in Youth Impact.

That I know I felt a little sense of worth being on earth.

But that was past already.

Today, I still choose to move on.

I don't know what will happen for the next 10, 20 years.

Twenty years, wow mum had given me to have life for 20years.

God has do the world a favour to bring me into this world.

Whatever it's gonna to be, I wish I will never be alone.

In time to come, I really really really.

Dont wish to be a lonely freak.

Eventhough I have so many regrets in the past 20years.

But I am thankful.

I thank God for always being around at my lowest point of life.

Many times, I really want to end my life.

But I know He paid a price for it. I should not think that way.

I want to thank my 'irresponsible' parents.

Eventhough they didn't really show care and concern for the past years.

But I still love them because ultimately they are still... my blood related parents.

I always remember even I am so hard to love but He still loves.

So eventhough my parents did a mistake but I still love them.

I want to thank my family, ya we are not rich but we still stand strong!

I want to thank friends being around in my life, making my life worthwhile.

You should know who you are, not gonna repeat myself.

I want to thank church friends and pastors.

They taught me life. They taught me to live up my life.

I want to thank my fantastic colleagues.

They are like my second family, shared all my problems.

They taught me life as well.

They're like the most unexpected treasures I got in life.

So many times I feel like giving up, they are the ones who stand by me.

Lastly, I want to thank Jill Lim Jia Hui.

You've been very strong, so much stronger than I thought.

You cannot choose life but you can choose how to live life.

20years, I've seen you been through so many unexpected things.

Yet, you pull it through.

Even from the start, so many times you wanted to give up, you pull through.

I know you never want to be who you are today,

but under so many circumstances, you are still not bad afterall.

I am proud of being who are you today.

It's just 20years, there are so much to learn and experience.

I LOVE YOU.

Even when no one is going to stand by you, your heart and soul still remain yours... ...

STRONG GIRL, JIAYOU!

I MISS YOU.

2009-11-06T17:05:00.004+08:00

A million times I fall, You are always here to catch me.

A million times I was at the edge of life, You were here.
A million times I find it so hard to love, You still love me.
For who I am.

Jesus, I am nothing without You in my life.
In my darkest moment of life, You are always so encouraging.
I neglected, I always turn away from Your kindness.
But You still, love.
The gracious You, I took You for grated.

I am sinful, please keep me.
The commandments, it's written black and white.
But I still choose to break Your heart.

Jesus, please forgive me for being so sinful.
Please hug me tightly and never let me go.
Please continue to throw abundance of love to me.

In life, I make alot of mistakes.
When I look back, I felt really useless being on earth.
But I felt worthy in You.
Please give me strength.

Jesus, I have struggles.
Like everyone else, I cannot accept who I am today.
Looking back at all the mistakes.
I don't know what am I doing with my life.

You teach me, won't you?
You heard me, did you?
Mend my heart, can you?

I have nowhere to go, no idea where to go.
You are always my light in my life.
I love You, endlessly.

MY SMALL LIL TALENT.

2009-10-07T20:44:00.007+08:00

It's one tiring week.

Roadshows, and roadshows.

Which makes me realize time flew faster then usual.

And manage to kill my boredom with some artistic genes in me.

Pardon me for my nudeness, I knw I am suck without a makeover.

Came to realize I was once an art student, then a fashion design student.

Now I am doing things that is totally not relevant.

Faint*

I manage to find some photos I took with darling qian.

I think last week or something.

I definately miss this clique of people, you shld know who u are.

Let's party soon please please please.

And obviously I miss baby, alright two more days to friday!!!

I will hold on there!!!

IT'S A COOLGOOD WEEKEND.

2009-10-05T15:49:00.009+08:00

3 Oct 2009

It's jose mummy's boy boy ovaltine's bday! Sorry milo is not there.
Anyway, I was intending to head down to powerhouse.
But because I love baby, I headed home.

I had a great fun, simple nice weekend.
It's nice to know that I am needed at times.

Btw, I spoke to my dad the other night.
After four years without seeing him.
Fifteen years without talking to him face to face.
It's very touch, though I hate my parents so much.
Because I always feel that they failed being a parent.

But on the other hand, I realize I still forgive.
Because ultimately, my blood runs the genes of theirs.
No matter what it's a fact that
they are my one and only blood related parents on earth.

I am thankful, I am contented of my well being.
Esp, Jesus has been good looking me through the darkest time.
I cried while I was speaking to dad because I know I am rmb at last.

Nineteen years without a proper family.
Without much guidance about life.
I am still doing good, I will still be doing good.

I will be a good person. Haha.

SAY IT AGAIN.

2009-10-02T11:24:00.003+08:00

30 Sep 2009

Adding some photos to this blog before it become almost dead.
Ok, Out to town with Jose Mummy & Cheng Hsiang Kor Kor.
To Orchard Central, The Heeren, Cineleisure.

:D:D:D

DARLING BDAY PART 2.

2009-09-22T12:00:00.000+08:00

It's tuesday! Another four days to weekend!
Another five days to lover jinman 19th bday!
Another 8days to pay day!
Another dunno how many days before I see Roy.
Rah~

Credits most pictures to Jimmy.
Now, I know $5000 camera is so damn good.
Haha.

Maybe someday I shall join some make up courses.
Seems really interesting to beautify girls.

Baby, when are you giving me one of this bouquet. :X

And I saw lover while heading to social house eh. :D

QIANQIAN BDAY!

2009-09-21T14:45:00.005+08:00

HAPPY SWEET 17 to darling!

WARNING: HEAVY IMAGE!

Alright let me upload some today, some another day.

Our girls went party and I go on later to SOHO with darling Audrey and Shuana.

:D:D:D:D:D to the nice long weekend!!!

20092009.

2009-09-21T14:30:00.000+08:00

We are lovers! Happy 3rd Monthsary baby!!!

STRONGER.

2009-09-17T20:53:00.002+08:00

I am strong, I am strong.

I will never tear again from this day on, till something really strikes me.

Proably will be, if ahma will to leave this world earlier than me.

Ahma, wo ai ni!

SO YOU ARE.

2009-09-13T17:33:00.003+08:00

Then I know, staying here by your side.
That is my defination of happiness.

P.S: Love, as simple as it is.

:D:D:D

2009-09-04T13:26:00.004+08:00

Today, is friday!!!
I got present from b, that's one item off from my wishlist!

And my next aim will be porter bag.
I call it small aim, because it's 200 bucks and I aim it like more that half a year.
No idea why.
I shall get it before 20th this month.

Tonight to nana, tomorrow to fish farm then to club.
Sunday to orchard, to flyer.

Ok well arranged.
Excited*

BE AMEND.

2009-08-29T17:54:00.003+08:00

I love Friday and Saturday.
I love my world revolving around you.
I love every min and sec you are here by my side. :D

I love hugging you to sleep.
I love watching movie together.
I love nightlife with you.

I love weekend.
I love my kit kat provider.
I love everything about you.

I love you, till eternity I will still be here just for you. :D

REFRESH.

2009-08-27T23:33:00.002+08:00

I've done with my second blog, I called it '' MY SECRET PLACE''.
No one will sees it, it's all about my thoughts about, ya... baby boy.

So I'll update here again, when I feel there's a need to. (:

I LOVE YOU, ENDLESSLY.

2009-08-18T08:20:00.001+08:00

NO MONDAY BLUES!

2009-08-17T21:25:00.003+08:00

Now, I know how love works.
True love means when you are so tired, yet you find warmth.
When I think about baby boy, I'll smile.

Everything is just right.
And my God gave me a powerful message today, again.

" You can't enjoy today if you're worrying about the past or the future."

From christnotes.com, and ya I tear again.
Jesus, You can be more sweet than this.

I'm looking forward to my boring, yet not so boring weekend.
Meeting up nanny's family, service.

I miss Shawn Adams too, my nanny's grandson.
Not angmo, he's a mix blood of chinese and malay.

Aw~ so cute.

ONE GLORIOUS DAY.

2009-08-16T20:57:00.003+08:00

It's been a year since I last step into this place called church.
This month has been very long, very difficult for me.
If you are one of those very very very very close ones you should know.

For a moment, I ask God why?
Why did you chose me?

Remember that day I posted up a post.
So much I have been wanting to go church for the longest time.
I was listening to praise and worship songs.
And I teared terribly.

Suddenly, a ex-schoolmate of mine.
Came to talk to me on msn, asking me to go church.
We hardly talk, the last time we chat was one and a half year ago.

I know it was Him.
For a moment I doubted, I ask her.
How do you know is God who told you so?
She don't know how to answer, she said.
She sense it, for a moment she doubted.
She overcame her fear to talk to me.
Because she know is weird to ask people to go church this way.

I didn't reject.
I accepted it, I cried more terribly.
Because I know He is real, He is still always so real to me.

Today, I almost wanted to back up.
But, I didn't because I was reminded from what I've taught previously.
When you don't feel like going to church,
the more you should go.
Because He has a word for you.

So I went, the journey.
I was listening to worship songs.
I suddenly remember the very first time.
I accepted Him as a saviour, 8 years ago.

I know holy spirit was with me throughout the service.
Even I am now typing, I just tear a moment ago.

As I cried out to Him about my burden and trouble.
I open out my notes, I turn to this sermon notes I've note down.
About a year ago, the title of the sermon was "Trouble will come".
It's a sermon from my previous church, by Pastor Daniel.

I read the first sentence, it touches me from the bottom of my heart.
I cried, for the longest time.
It goes, "grieve is not the last day of rest but a starting of a wonderful day."

You thought that's it, ya I thought that's it too.
Then I opened out the bible, the first page I flip to was...
Jeremiah 15:11-20

I know He's real.
After so long, after I run so far.
After so many sins and shame.
He is still here for me.
He still never break His promise.
He still never forsake.
Even I know I am so hard to love.
But He still love.

Jesus, I love You.

A GIMPSE OF LIFE.

2009-08-16T17:27:00.006+08:00

Mr R, I miss miss miss weekend with you around.
I am rotting at home.
Another two weeks to suffer through.

Ya, I went to church.
Awesome, I know no matter where I run to.
God is watching, God is still... with me.
Always faithful, always love.

Thank you, Jesus.
My beautiful saviour.

I'M LOVIN IT.

2009-08-14T18:45:00.000+08:00

I LOVE THIS, DON'T YOU? :X

UNFAIR.

2009-07-28T13:44:00.004+08:00

I wish God will be fairer.
If not today I will not be this way.
It feels like end of the world.
I do hope I have the courage to commit suicide.
But I don't have it.

Roy, I miss you.
Well, life is unfair.

Thank you for loving me.
I love you, like how deep the sea is.
I love you, like how beautiful the sky is.
I love you, like I always do.
I love you, till my last breath I'll still love you.

Thank you for loving me, always.

BREAK FREE.

2009-07-21T10:02:00.005+08:00

Today is tuesday, which means still have two days to go.

Ytd, I slpt pretty late cos all of us stayed in the office to play wii.
Lol.

Anyway, skinny skinny pig is on outfield trip this week.
An extra off this coming monday.
The following week will be extra off till tuesday.
Seems pretty good ah.
Then?!

OUTFIELD for STRAIGHT TWO WKS withOUT BOOKING OUT!!!
Rah~
I told him you like go holiday two weeks so long.
I gotta rot at home by then, very upset.
KIND SOULMATES, PLS BOOKED MY WEEKEND.

Maybe I shall go to church, stop clubbing.
I miss jumping, yelling, dancing in the house of God.

Met girlfriends Saturday & Sunday.
Fruitful weekend. (:

SUNDAY, TOUGHEST OF ALL.

2009-07-20T00:17:00.004+08:00

It's always toughest, when I have to start work in hours time.
When I have to start counting down the time again.
I shall post up some pictures with girlies again when I have the time.

Happy Monthsary, Roy B!
Actually, is not very happy bcos I cannot see u personally to wish and hug u. ):
One month is short.
One year is okay not so bad.
Ten years will be never enough.

Still holding on to each other when both our hair turn white, will be just nice. (:

Am really sleepy.

Shall stop here before I start more about roy and roy.

Good nitex.

Lastly, imy b.

BOY, I MISS UR KISSES.

2009-07-14T23:31:00.004+08:00

Baby, baby, I miss you too much.

Am falling sick, coughing and sneezing non-stop.

So upset.

I saw my ex boyfriend just now with his wife to be.

It's not a weird feeling.

Suddenly jill find herself grown up

When both of them hold hands and walk passed me.

No hatred, not at all.

But simply my heart smile.

I smile bcos we both found our own true love in life.

I bless them with happiness silently.

So nice, that everyone is getting their own true love in life.

Bibi, thanks for being my happiness.

Thanks for a heart that only beats for me.

Thanks for a love that only belongs to me.

Thanks for sparkling up my life.

Thanks for being there be it sad, or happy.

Thanks for being a good listener for me.

Thanks for throwing bundance of care for me.

I just want to hold you, love you, be taken care by you,

All of this life.
It's the way you make me feel. (:

SOMETIMES LOVE COMES AROUND.

2009-07-12T21:16:00.002+08:00

It's rather fast ya know weekend it's gonna over.

And I'm gonna wait for another five days for couple days.

*Feels like hell*

Gonna do some pack up for my room.

Wash the clothes.

Get prepare for tomorrow's work.

Have my dragonfruit.

Bath, mask.

I shall stopped, bcos I wanna get in done real quick.

And SLEEP!

Nights, to the world.

SKINNY DIARRHOEA.

2009-07-09T12:19:00.003+08:00

Am at hm now, down with diarrhoea.

I bet going to lose a few pounds again.

Ok, I still have three days

Before I can lie on Roy's shoulder and sleep soundly.

I am like hell missing him tons.

I am like hell didn't realize we just patch back 18days.

It seems like ten months to me.

Alright, boring post.

I am going to catch some rest,
*with clubbing songs on*.

I WANNA BE WITH YOU.

2009-07-03T11:01:00.007+08:00

I've never been so serious before I guess.
Wanting someone so much in life.

Anyway, boy drove me to work today. (:
Still very good, I never knew I am so speak out in us.
I used to be someone who is very quiet in rs.

This guy, changed me I guess.
I'm like the guy in this rs.
Speaking out all my confessions towards him.
I hope to stay this way and never ends.

I want to be with you, simple and nice.
You're my hope and strength, simple and nice.
I feel secure and safe with you around, simple and nice. (:

Overdue pictures....
And I'm off to meet B at amk hub for movie.
Bye~

LOVABLE WORK!

2009-07-01T10:52:00.003+08:00

It's the first day,
I'm adapting to without my jose mummy, catty cat, jazzi jaslyn.
It really seems very weird without the three ladies in the office.
*Upset, sunset, butterfly. *

Pictures took yesterday and monday. (:

I am glad to have all these fun people in my life.
And baby is by my side which also makes me felt very loved.

I have been seeing him like everyday...
It don't really seems like he's in the army.
It's nice, sweet, and he shld know I love him more than myself.

(:(:(:

JOSE MUMMY, MISS U!

2009-06-30T09:52:00.000+08:00

Alright today is mummy last day, after a hard time here for 2years.

Finally, mummy is setting a new path in life i guess.
I will wish mummy all the best, and you know u're irreplacable.
Whereever you gonna be, you'll be my one and only mummy in this office.

I'll miss you.
I'll miss your laughter.
I'll miss your encouragement.
I'll miss you sleeping beside me during journey to roadshow.
I'll miss fan-ing for you when u're hot at roadshow.
I'll miss you for tolerating my zilian-ness.
I'll miss buying donut for you,
cos i know my mummy will get gastric if she dont have proper meals.
I'll miss the days, u're here.

I know my mummy will be a stronger woman in future.
She'll definately get a better job next time.
And I'll definately want meets up often.

All da best mummy jose! ily, muacks!

YOU'RE WARN TO RMB US!!!

DON'T CRY HORZ... :X

白色婚礼.

2009-06-29T00:02:00.012+08:00

Saturday, I stayed over at his place.

Woke up at 1pm. :X

Finally, I am sleeping till the sun hit my butt.

Prepare and everything,headed out to town.

*Very upset*

Tyre burst, ended up fixing it.

By the time we reach town it's like 5pm.

I saw girlfriends by coincidence.

Both same reaction when they saw me.

'You slim down alot eh! LOL.'

This is how slim I am lah, lol.

We actually intended to meet up for dinner at night.

But ya know Singapore is small.

So I ended up did some catching up and shopping with them.

Then B went to cine with his friend.

After that fetch me then headed to Chinatown to meet his friends.

LOVE IS SIMPLE.

2009-06-28T20:01:00.005+08:00

Friday, I am missing out the clubs this week.

Like finally you cant find me in any clubs this week.

It felt a lil bit uneasy without heading to clubs.

But it's always loved to be with someone you love.

B fetch me from home to amk library, then hub then boat quay.

Finally I understand what it really means to find that 'someone' in life.

I've never felt so real ever before.

Love is simple.

I kinda understand it, to love is to love his everything.

His past, now and future.

No matter what he become, be it ugly/fat/sick.

I'll still continue to love and to care.

He's special in my eyes, I know I am special in his as well.

It's an undefined feeling when you know you have already found your desire happiness in life.

I know he's irreplacable already.

I love you more than words can say... ...

SO IN LOVE WITH YOU.

2009-06-22T15:57:00.006+08:00

Four days, four more days before you can hug me in your arms.
It seems really like four years to me now eh.

4 days, 96 hrs, 5760 min, 345600 sec.
Ah!!!!!!!! Very very long eh, feel like crying.
*Upset, sunset*

I just can't live without you and I want you to know
I need you like I've never needed anyone before

I live my life for you

I wanna be by your side in everything that you do.

And if there's only one thing you can believe is true.

I live my life for you

I'M YOURS, U'RE MINE.

2009-06-22T11:03:00.005+08:00

It's a very unreal feeling.
I dunno why, been smiling and smiling all day.
Hahaha.

A year ago, he don't really bother so much when we're together.
Now, maybe both of us had grown.
He's much more caring which makes me felt loved but abit uneasy.

I can't wait for someone to hug me sleep again.
I can't wait for someone to drive me out for shopping, for dinner, maybe movie!
Wow, very very long never watch movie eh.

I think I am too hyper now.
Ok, pictures at st james last sat. I saw Victoria babe! :D

I'll be a very good girl, shall not club anymore.
Though B never say so regarding this.
But I know which guy will like to see gf dance wit other guys.

Baby, ya know ily more than any guys I met in life.
I don't dare to think how long can this last.
But I know 'kai xin jiu hao'.
Because I love, I treasure, I cherish this moment.
Even if it don't last, I will not regret.

I'LL NEVER STOP.

2009-06-14T15:51:00.006+08:00

Ytd boat quay with anotIher Mr J which I get to known from work.
I left home early, bcos I had to be here at 10am.

You know I hate the abandon feeling.
Yet I hate people who are so irritating.
Shan't not mention names.

Enough, enough... GUYS you're enough!
I rather walk this life alone can.
Stop bothering how my life shld walks.
This is my own life!!!
Rah~

LALALALALALA~

2009-06-12T14:04:00.006+08:00

Back yo! Ok, today is Friday!
Normally shld be going weewee~
Today upset, tmr need to be at amk at 10AM!!

Ya, wtf. Ya...
Anyway, ppl here are nice.
They're going St James tonight.
Shall I tagged along?!

And Joanna is meeting me later!!!
Hopefully she don't drop me an air plane.
Excited*

Anyway, ytd Cheng Hsiang came to find me.
To show off his new pet, digi cam.
Ah!!!!! I oso want, upset.

HAPPY 19TH MEL AIREN! :D

2009-06-07T23:14:00.006+08:00

I've got eyebrow trim, finally!

Ya I know is not a very big thing,

but I am glad I no longer need to keep my bangs!

Ok, ytd was Rebel.

Tonight, Daniel ask me to go St James.

A time check, I shall get enough rest in order to tahan tmr. Upset~

Well, am a happy girl these days.

Bcos I bought new clothes, AGAIN!?

And new nightwear.

A new life is starting again... ...

Tmr will be at AMK Hub for work in the evening,

I'll pray very hard not to see my ex bf. -.-''

I'll pray very hard that my friends who study at NYP will come and find me. :X

I miss Mr R quite alot these days... ...

I am so complicated... ...

AWAITING FOR THESE?!

2009-06-04T00:08:00.009+08:00

That's Saturday, work, vivo, clarke quay, rebel, zirca... ...

This Saturday gonna be Double O I guess, my hot airen bday.

Woohoo~

Ok, pretty excited.

Bcos after this week I am working 8th to 21st at Jurong Point, 10am to 10pm.

Hectic two weeks, including Sat & Sun.

Meaning no night life for the next two weeks, upset.

Anyway, I really miss lots of my friends and esp girlfriends.

No more time for meets up. ):

IS THIS MY TRUESELF?

2009-06-02T00:37:00.005+08:00

This few days been questioning alot, I don't really know do I rate by alot.
Alot of questions, alot of doubts.
It's been one month I get over from the past relationship.
Kinda adapt to those weekends without movies.
Adapt to those weekdays without dinner together, but OT in the office.
Adapt to those nights sleeping alone on a single bed.
Well I didn't dwell alot on this nowadays, though sometimes do felt abit lost of something.

And for the past one month, I don't really know myself I guess.
I used to be someone who hates to club.
Just don't know why, but I've been clubbing for the last 4weekends.
I used to hate revealing clothings, because I don't want to seek the wrong attention.
I used to smoke 1 pack in 4 to 7days.
Now I think 1 pack can just last me for 2, 3 days.

I don't really know who am I now.
Don't even recognize myself.
I can't really differeciate what's happiness or what's agony?

I always thought that if I end up not getting married, I'll adopt a child.
Now, I don't even feel like having one.
Because I know I don't even know hw to teach the kids about well being.
See, I'm a very good example.
I don't wish my kids to suffer as much as I do now.

Somehow, I really wonder what's self worth meant to me?
I always thought to make myself being loved.
I should at least know how to love myself.
Is this life I'm leading now shown that I love myself?

God, so much so much I feel just like giving up this life.
I felt no sense of worth living here.
I've got really lil faith to move on.
When I'm tired, I really hope to find someone to rely on.
But sadly, I found none.

So much so much I wish to get back to church.
But so much so much fear hold me back.
I am so afraid that I'll backslided again.

Today, I was reading Christnotes again,
again it touches me....

"Even when you don't see God's love for you, you can still have faith that he loves you -- that is, you can be certain that he loves you, even though you don't see it.

During those "dark times" in your spiritual life, you may not be able to see God's love, his faithfulness, his grace, or his promises to you; however, don't lose your faith. Be certain of what [you] do not see.

One day, your faith will be sight."

I know I am like a lost sheep now trying to find my way home... ...

REPLIES.

2009-05-18T14:25:00.003+08:00

Shuan: You can add me on facebook ya. :D

Anon: Thanks for the encouragement, I truly hope to find someone that appreciates my inner and outer beauty. (:

Steph: Thanks babe, I meet you up soon k. Loves. *
Joanna: Lovely darling, I see ya soon again. It's nice to have ya all by my side these days. (:
Lyn: I bought it from Far East Plaza, cannot rmb the shop name, it's at the 3rd flr. I hope that helps. (:
Reader: What's over is over, so I don't wish to look back again. Just me and my bf is over. (:
Euphoria Room: U can email me at adores06@yahoo.com.sg if u need advertorial over here. I'm willing to do the job for you with my best effort. (:
Boonling: But I still have double chin leh, shall lost more weight to keep flat stomach and beautiful legs. Haha.
Ivy: It's nice seeing you too, it's really been very loooooong since we last met and sing K. HAHA.
Hi: I'm 155m tall. I've been having only a meal a day for the past one week. And drink less water. It's unhealthy so don't learn it from me. Hah. Well, it's quite normal that people who are out of love either gain or loss weight i guess. (:
Sebas: Lol. I will rock on, u wanna rock with me. I know not funny. :X

Just a lil add on, I'm very proud of this top I wore.
Cos it's from blogshop, raw sleeves.
Very top shop inspired one, topshop is selling this at $30+
And I got it at $15! *PROUDLY*

WARNING!!! IMAGE HEAVY!

2009-05-18T12:55:00.002+08:00

Ok, Sat was a happening one.
Went to send Zel off at airport.
Guess we'll gonna miss her lots, hope she'll take care of herself at France.

It was a short, nice class gathering.
And as expected everyone were like, '' you slim down alot eh!''
LOL.

Then, went over to Lunar to mit J.
And I caught Ivy and Airen by coincidence, so nice!
Cut the story short, I ended up at Boat Quay.
Saw another J guy, caught by coincidence as well.
J guy, enjoy the days with your HAIR!!!
Hahah~

Ok, shall continue my picture post tmr again. (:
Tata.

NO PAIN, NO GAIN

2009-05-15T13:38:00.004+08:00

Back, very busy now, shall be back blogging after 6pm.
I didn't know I can slim down 4kg in 2 wks.
I'm aiming to lose another 2kg, to mit 39kg.
I know is crazy, but who cares.

And ya tonight is free. Unless Joanna date me. :X
Sat: Morning, Haiyan booked to East Coast
Evening, Booked by ex-class gathering to send Zel off at Airport.
Night, Booked by J to Rebel.
Sun: Booked by Jinman, Lover.

Met Sebas ytd, funny people get together goes like this... ...

"Don't think, so you'll not feel pain."

WOMAN OUT OF LOVE... ...

2009-05-11T17:36:00.001+08:00

My quote of the day, ' Woman out of love, prettiest of all.'
It's been awhile since I last so 'slim' lah. :X
No more round face. Winks*
Ok, not only i feel that everyone does k.

I really wish I'll still believe every single word u say,
but you've been telling me too much lies.
Somehow, I hesitate everything you've told me again.
Cos I've already can't differentiate which are true, which are lies.
So this time,
I choose to make my stand, not to believe, so as not to be affected.
Continue to live the way I wanna. (:

HAIYAN BIRD-DAY CELEB!

2009-05-06T09:54:00.009+08:00

It's a nice night, despite facing the break up.
I was strong that night I guess.
And I was a drunkard at 4am next day, dragging my feet hm. :X

Just an add on, I'll be working at Ngee Ann Poly tmr.
All the way from 11am to 5pm.
Do drop by and buy Symantac stuff from me ah.
Oh shuai ge~ LOL

LAST FRIDAY.

2009-05-04T10:43:00.006+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUM.

2009-04-28T00:00:00.001+08:00

For the past 19 years I'm on earth, I don't even remember her birthday.
I only know it falls in the month of April, few days back I look at her i/c,
knowing that she's turning 49 this year 50 next year.

50 years, hah. I know I have no right to judge her life,
but still what have she done in her life?
In my 19 years she also didn't celebrated my birthday.

But still you know no matter hw bad she is, what she will become.
Though sometimes I really think that she didn't really do her part,
but I still love her and always do.

Bcos I know, God make her my mum for a reason.
I believe she has her own worries, her own reasons for being this way.
Something I really know, no matter hw people look down on her,
I know I shouldn't.
Afterall, she didn't abort me, she still give birth to me. (:

Still give thanks to God that she's my mum. (:
Happy Birthday and I love you mummy!

LOVES.

2009-04-27T23:02:00.002+08:00

LATEEEEEEEEEE POST!

2009-04-24T10:56:00.002+08:00

So we manage to get back again, still loving loving.
Hahaha.
The late post... woots~
And strictly no outings this weekend,
bought too many clothes, very broke already...

LONG WAIT!!!!!!!!!

2009-04-19T19:45:00.007+08:00

Ok, I know lover is waiting for this to grab the photos.

That was friday, me and girls went orchard after my work.

Had a simple, fun chilling night.

And I met lover, by conincidence. Simply miss her luhs!

As passerby was asking about the dress that I wore,

it's a one piece dress that I've got from online blogshop.

If you're interested to buy from me,

which I have wore once if you don't mind. Just drop a tag here. (:

It's always crazy, when we get tgt. >>>

The end! Next up, crazy girls nite on Sat at St James Powerhouse.

TWO BESTIES FOR LIFE!

2009-04-11T14:30:00.006+08:00

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO BRENDA SANTA!!!
Finally 18!!!

I met Melisa airen, and Stephanie!
It's like 3000years since I met Steph.
1000 years since I met Airen.
Hahah! Yes, it's that exaggerate.

Edited*

BANGS BACK!

2009-04-05T14:34:00.003+08:00

Well, in order to cover my ugly eyebrows.
I've decided to make this move, I'm not very sure is it a rite or bad move.
Pals, wat do you think of this 'old'... new hairstyle?

I miss all the GIRLFRIENDS!!!
Next wed, fri booked! :D

SHADOWFEET.

2009-03-22T17:36:00.004+08:00

Went for my date with the girls ytd, always loving. Haha.
Catch coming soon, and I am always the bravest among all.
I still think Shutter is the most scary I've ever watch.

Then to supper than hm. Nothing much, but always fun catching up. :D

Photos credits, yan.

SIMPLE ONE.

2009-03-09T12:57:00.004+08:00

That's saturday, simple meet up.

Simple shopping at fareast with my long time no see bestie in nafa.

Simple dinner at cine.

Simple chill out at Balcony with a few guy friends and bestie.

Simple late supper at chinatown.

Her porter bag, my black boots.

And I saw yang outside cine! :D

This is Sam, chill out wit him and his friends. :D

Everything is simple yet meaningful.

And still I wanna wish bestie Vivianne, Happy Belated Birthday!

Meet up soon again kk. :D