BE AMEND.

I love Friday and Saturday.
I love my world revolving around you.
I love every min and sec you are here by my side. :D

I love hugging you to sleep.
I love watching movie together.
I love nightlife with you.

I love weekend.
I love my kit kat provider.
I love everything about you.

I love you, till eternity I will still be here just for you. :D

REFRESH.

I've done with my second blog, I called it '' MY SECRET PLACE''.
No one will sees it, it's all about my thoughts about, ya... baby boy.

So I'll update here again, when I feel there's a need to. (:

I LOVE YOU, ENDLESSLY.

NO MONDAY BLUES!

Now, I know how love works.
True love means when you are so tired, yet you find warmth.
When I think about baby boy, I'll smile.



Everything is just right.
And my God gave me a powerful message today, again.

" You can't enjoy today if you're worrying about the past or the future."

From christnotes.com, and ya I tear again.
Jesus, You can be more sweet than this.

I'm looking forward to my boring, yet not so boring weekend.
Meeting up nanny's family, service.



I miss Shawn Adams too, my nanny's grandson.
Not angmo, he's a mix blood of chinese and malay.



Aw~ so cute.

ONE GLORIOUS DAY.

It's been a year since I last step into this place called church.
This month has been very long, very difficult for me.
If you are one of those very very very very close ones you should know.

For a moment, I ask God why?
Why did you chose me?

Remember that day I posted up a post.
So much I have been wanting to go church for the longest time.
I was listening to praise and worship songs.
And I teared terribly.

Suddenly, a ex-schoolmate of mine.
Came to talk to me on msn, asking me to go church.
We hardly talk, the last time we chat was one and a half year ago.

I know it was Him.
For a moment I doubted, I ask her.
How do you know is God who told you so?
She don't know how to answer, she said.
She sense it, for a moment she doubted.
She overcame her fear to talk to me.
Because she know is weird to ask people to go church this way.

I didn't reject.
I accepted it, I cried more terribly.
Because I know He is real, He is still always so real to me.

Today, I almost wanted to back up.
But, I didn't because I was reminded from what I've taught previously.
When you don't feel like going to church,
the more you should go.
Because He has a word for you.

So I went, the journey.
I was listening to worship songs.
I suddenly remember the very first time.
I accepted Him as a saviour, 8 years ago.

I know holy spirit was with me throughout the service.
Even I am now typing, I just tear a moment ago.

As I cried out to Him about my burden and trouble.
I open out my notes, I turn to this sermon notes I've note down.
About a year ago, the title of the sermon was "Trouble will come".
It's a sermon from my previous church, by Pastor Daniel.

I read the first sentence, it touches me from the bottom of my heart.
I cried, for the longest time.
It goes, "grieve is not the last day of rest but a starting of a wonderful day."

You thought that's it, ya I thought that's it too.
Then I opened out the bible, the first page I flip to was...
Jeremiah 15:11-20

I know He's real.
After so long, after I run so far.
After so many sins and shame.
He is still here for me.
He still never break His promise.
He still never forsake.
Even I know I am so hard to love.
But He still love.

Jesus, I love You.

A GIMPSE OF LIFE.

Mr R, I miss miss miss weekend with you around.
I am rotting at home.
Another two weeks to suffer through.

Ya, I went to church.
Awesome, I know no matter where I run to.
God is watching, God is still... with me.
Always faithful, always love.

Thank you, Jesus.
My beautiful saviour.

I'M LOVIN IT.

I LOVE THIS, DON'T YOU? :X

UNFAIR.

I wish God will be fairer.
If not today I will not be this way.
It feels like end of the world.
I do hope I have the courage to commit suicide.
But I don't have it.

Roy, I miss you.
Well, life is unfair.

Thank you for loving me.
I love you, like how deep the sea is.
I love you, like how beautiful the sky is.
I love you, like I always do.
I love you, till my last breath I'll still love you.

Thank you for loving me, always.

BREAK FREE.

Today is tuesday, which means still have two days to go.

Ytd, I slpt pretty late cos all of us stayed in the office to play wii.
Lol.

Anyway, skinny skinny pig is on outfield trip this week.
An extra off this coming monday.
The following week will be extra off till tuesday.
Seems pretty good ah.
Then?!

OUTFIELD for STRAIGHT TWO WKS withOUT BOOKING OUT!!!
Rah~
I told him you like go holiday two weeks so long.
I gotta rot at home by then, very upset.
KIND SOULMATES, PLS BOOKED MY WEEKEND.

Maybe I shall go to church, stop clubbing.
I miss jumping, yelling, dancing in the house of God.

Met girlfriends Saturday & Sunday.
Fruitful weekend. (:

SUNDAY, TOUGHEST OF ALL.

It's always toughest, when I have to start work in hours time.
When I have to start counting down the time again.
I shall post up some pictures with girlies again when I have the time.

Happy Monthsary, Roy B!
Actually, is not very happy bcos I cannot see u personally to wish and hug u. ):
One month is short.
One year is okay not so bad.
Ten years will be never enough.

Still holding on to each other when both our hair turn white, will be just nice. (:

Am really sleepy.

Shall stop here before I start more about roy and roy.

Good nitex.

Lastly, imy b.

BOY, I MISS UR KISSES.

Baby, baby, I miss you too much.

Am falling sick, coughing and sneezing non-stop.

So upset.

I saw my ex boyfriend just now with his wife to be.

It's not a weird feeling.

Suddenly jill find herself grown up

When both of them hold hands and walk passed me.

No hatred, not at all.

But simply my heart smile.

I smile bcos we both found our own true love in life.

I bless them with happiness silently.

So nice, that everyone is getting their own true love in life.

Bibi, thanks for being my happiness.

Thanks for a heart that only beats for me.

Thanks for a love that only belongs to me.

Thanks for sparkling up my life.

Thanks for being there be it sad, or happy.

Thanks for being a good listener for me.

Thanks for throwing bundance of care for me.

I just want to hold you, love you, be taken care by you,

All of this life.
It's the way you make me feel. (: