SOMETIMES...

Sometimes I really think life sucks.
It sucks maybe or mainly bcos I am not on a right path with Jesus.
Then I will just keep blaming, whining, complaining how unfair is life.

No need to go too far, just Roy is good enough.
I always very admire, not of whether the family is rich or not.
It's just like when I want to further study,
getting a 2k from my family is like begging mum to get it from loanshark.
And that fortunate Roy has a family that can afford his studies and everything.
Yet, he just take all these for grated.

That's unfair.
I have girlfriends who are so rich, they have height, beauty, everything almost perfect.
Start to look at myself.

I don't know why, am starting to look down on myself.
For some reasons, NAFA is not replying my readmission. ):
I'm held in this company, being promoted as sales executive.
Yet I don't know should I be happy or not.
Should I stay or not?

I keep thinking, wondering, 10years down what will I bcum.
I am so afraid of everything.
Even having Roy by my side is so scary,
it's like I dont even dare to hold on hope in us.
And where will I be if I return Nafa.
And who will I become if I continue working here.

I feel like dying... ...

FOOD FOR THOUGHT.

Maybe when you start to get unhappy with work daily.
It's about to come to an end.

I don't know why is it Jill don't like to be always get corrected by people.
Or was it an excuse that I will always forget this, forget that.

Even took a day leave have to worry about this and that.
Took a day of mc, have to keep waking up and worry about work.

Hiahs, life sucks for one and a half year.
I shall put a full stop before we go on incentive trip.
Be nice and tell boss not to bring me along to overseas.

Sometimes really think I always think for others.
Then when will ever people think of me.
Is human really always so selfish? So self centered?

Maybe my personality really have a problem.
Because I am always blur and straight forward.
Or maybe I always think that I'm right people are wrong.
Or trying to find excuse to cover my own butt.

Tired, really very tired.
Sometimes get abit amazed that I could stay in this environment for
one and a half year.
1.5k job, 10hr job, sometimes Saturdays occupied.
Think through really not something I want in life.

While waiting for Nafa to reply my email on readmission.
I think I need a break.
Maybe you could say I am running away from responsibilities.
Running away from challenges ahead.
Maybe I didn't tried my best.
But I ask what for? What will I learn end of the day?
Will I be happy end of the day?

Ponder my thoughts.

NO MEANING.

I came here to kill time.
Blogged those pictures, ST500 has rent out.
It's now in bangkok. Sadded.

I feel like sleeping.
These few days have not been sleeping well.
It's unusual, but I'm excited because it's FINALLY FRIDAY tomorrow.

Can I say NO to Sabai... ...

HOT SUMMER DAY.

Caught the movie with Roy.
This is like only the fifth movie we catch eversince we know each other.
Nice, sweet, romantic and touching.

ST500!

Since Roy bought me this,

I guess blog is not going to be dead from this day onwards.
Yayness~

Ok, it's good to be friends, maybe very good friends.
I understand this, love each other doesn't need to be together.
Haha~

Or rather it's better to be friends than enemies.
Ok, stop my nonsense and upload the pictures.
From Kallang to Cineleisure to Powerhouse to Sabai Sabai.