Tuesday, January 12, 2010

CHANGES.

Wow, 4years I think I look chao liao now. -.-''
2006
20082009
2010

Monday, January 4, 2010

第二次爱上你 .



I had a long weekend. I think it's one of the longest weekend I've ever had.
Alot of things happened, I am almost trashed.
Like I say I am standing in the middle of the bridge, turn left nor right seems wrong.

In two days time I'll be 20.
I chose to leave the relationship eventhough I know it hurts.
Eventhough it feels like my heart has been cut into pieces and get stepped.
That's how painful it is.
I cry till I already don't know how to turn off that tap already.

But I'm glad my girlfriends are there.
I've been on earth for 20years, I felt cherished by friends and family.
I choose to walk away, run to the other person's heart.

Someone that will treasure my presence.
Someone that will try his best to make me smile.
Someone that I know I he's here for me. (:

Mr R. is not no good.
It's just that maybe because we know each other too long.
We know each other too well.
We know each other how we think of each other.
We know each others good and bad habits.
We know each others friends, family.
I did cherish that rs, I did wanted to hold on longer.
But there are too much hurts and disappointment I have taken in.

Maybe when you know each other too well.
You will get bored and leave each other ultimately.
I've learn alot, I realize I have to fight for my own happiness.
I have to be selfish.
Relationship takes two hands to clap.
It's very simple, trust and communcation.
When you lost both, then it's about time that it ends.

I used to always don't understand why in love there's hatred.
Now, I know why I totally understand why.
I dunno what will happen in the future.
I dunno was this a better choice.
But like I say once you walk straight, you can't make a u turn in life.

I don't blame him, I don't blame myself.
I just blame things that happened.
I just blame why did God make us met each other.
We tried twice being together.
Get so in love and one day you have to let go.
Life, I never understand.
I never understand how to walk.
Try and error, fall and pick myself up and walk again.

Maybe really to love a person, is to let him go and seek for a better future and happiness.
Humans expect too much from each other, and once you cant meet each others expectations.
Ya... there goes the end.