LAST WEEKEND.

SOMETIMES...

Sometimes I really think life sucks.
It sucks maybe or mainly bcos I am not on a right path with Jesus.
Then I will just keep blaming, whining, complaining how unfair is life.

No need to go too far, just Roy is good enough.
I always very admire, not of whether the family is rich or not.
It's just like when I want to further study,
getting a 2k from my family is like begging mum to get it from loanshark.
And that fortunate Roy has a family that can afford his studies and everything.
Yet, he just take all these for grated.

That's unfair.
I have girlfriends who are so rich, they have height, beauty, everything almost perfect.
Start to look at myself.

I don't know why, am starting to look down on myself.
For some reasons, NAFA is not replying my readmission. ):
I'm held in this company, being promoted as sales executive.
Yet I don't know should I be happy or not.
Should I stay or not?

I keep thinking, wondering, 10years down what will I bcum.
I am so afraid of everything.
Even having Roy by my side is so scary,
it's like I dont even dare to hold on hope in us.
And where will I be if I return Nafa.
And who will I become if I continue working here.

I feel like dying... ...

FOOD FOR THOUGHT.

Maybe when you start to get unhappy with work daily.
It's about to come to an end.

I don't know why is it Jill don't like to be always get corrected by people.
Or was it an excuse that I will always forget this, forget that.

Even took a day leave have to worry about this and that.
Took a day of mc, have to keep waking up and worry about work.

Hiahs, life sucks for one and a half year.
I shall put a full stop before we go on incentive trip.
Be nice and tell boss not to bring me along to overseas.

Sometimes really think I always think for others.
Then when will ever people think of me.
Is human really always so selfish? So self centered?

Maybe my personality really have a problem.
Because I am always blur and straight forward.
Or maybe I always think that I'm right people are wrong.
Or trying to find excuse to cover my own butt.

Tired, really very tired.
Sometimes get abit amazed that I could stay in this environment for
one and a half year.
1.5k job, 10hr job, sometimes Saturdays occupied.
Think through really not something I want in life.

While waiting for Nafa to reply my email on readmission.
I think I need a break.
Maybe you could say I am running away from responsibilities.
Running away from challenges ahead.
Maybe I didn't tried my best.
But I ask what for? What will I learn end of the day?
Will I be happy end of the day?

Ponder my thoughts.

NO MEANING.

I came here to kill time.
Blogged those pictures, ST500 has rent out.
It's now in bangkok. Sadded.

I feel like sleeping.
These few days have not been sleeping well.
It's unusual, but I'm excited because it's FINALLY FRIDAY tomorrow.

Can I say NO to Sabai... ...